to someone out there ...
mood: melancholic; music: emi fujita - desperado; feelings: tired/sleepy

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses,
You've been out ridin fences for so long now,
Oh and you're a hard one, but I know that you've got your reasons,
The things that are pleasin' you can hurt you somehow.
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds boy, she'll beat you if she's able.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table,
But you only want the ones you can't get.

Desperado, you ain't gettin no younger,
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin you home,
And freedom, oh freedom, well that's just some people talkin.
Your prison is walking through this world all alone.

Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime,
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine,
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day.
And you're losin all your highs and lows,
Ain't it funny how the feelin goes away?

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses,
Come down from your fences- open the gates.
It may be rainin, but there's a rainbow above you.
You'd better let somebody love you,
Let somebody love you.
You'd better let somebody love you,
Before it's too late.

Sooo not my type



Your physical "type" refers to men you find appealing and whom you expect would find you attractive as well. In the test, you picked a relatively small number of men as attractive.

The choices you made in the test suggest you have strong, automatic preferences for certain types of men. You made your choices quickly suggesting you have clear physical instincts

Unique Traits

This report highlights your "unique" tastes, or what makes some men personally attractive to you but not to everyone else.

Interestingly, a lot of the features you liked are not especially popular. They're not what usually defines "mainstream" attractiveness for men.


Your choices did not show a strong interest in Asian men. The majority of your interests were in other races.

You found 20% of the Asian men in this test physically attractive.

You found 10% of the Asian men in this test "date-able". (Ed: yeah, perhaps if they get better lkg ones!!)

Of the Asian men you found appealing, this man is considered the most universally attractive to most men.

Of the Asian men you found appealing, this man is considered the least universally attractive to most men. (Ed: But I think he's cute!!)


Your Favorite Face Types

Faces are made of different combinations of features and structures. You chose two particular patterns of men's faces repeatedly across a variety of ages, coloring, and attractiveness levels. Faces known scientifically as "Ecto-Mesomorph" repeatedly caught your eye. Men express this type in two ways. One version has a rectangular face shape that is long and narrow. The other type's face shape is often compared to a diamond, because it is wide at the cheeks and then has a sharply angled jaw. All Ecto-Mesomorph men have striking chins that are prominent and squared-off with a crisp line at the base. This is one of the most idealized male face types and can be found on most movie and music idols. It can hold either bold masculine features or more delicate handsome features, or some sexy combination of both. These men also tend to have lean and muscular builds when they're young. About 57% of other men especially prefer men with this face type.


You also liked a pattern scientists refer to as "Ectomorphs." Geometrically, they are similar to triangles, because they are widest at the cheekbones and then narrow to a relatively pointed chin. Ectomorph men are said to have "angular" features, including a chiseled nose and prominent cheekbones. Historically, these faces have been viewed as distinguished and were often found on European royalty. These men also tend to have lean builds. [And, you may want to watch out for those ears, since on true Ectomorphs, they tend to stick out a good bit.] About 46% of other men especially prefer this face type.


Your Favorite Body Types

One type of body that you especially liked is scientifically called an "Ecto-Mesomorph," which is a fancy way of saying that you like lean, muscular guys. These guys ran track in high school and still may run marathons every year. Their narrow body frames and long legs support tight, sinewy muscles. He has a prominent chest and a narrow waist, which creates the V-shaped torso some see as the "ideal" male frame. If you like nice pectoral (upper chest) muscles, flat stomachs, or even six-pack abs, he's your man. His biggest complaint is probably that he has difficulty bulking up with muscles or putting on weight (which he'll probably tell you about while eating a hot-fudge sundae). These men make up around 20% of the single population. Keep your eyes out for signs like narrow necks, Adam's apples, angular or chiseled facial features, flat butts, and relatively long arms and legs. At about 5'10", they tend to run about 145 pounds, and rarely ever gain over six pounds.

A man's height is extremely important to some men. According to choices you made in the test, you prefer to date only men who are about the same height as you. This is the best "fit" for you!

Are You Picky?


Very Picky: It's official: You're "picky." The fact is you are drawn to the most handsome of the handsome. You know what you like in men and are more selective than most men your age. Your tastes seem instinctual. You'd make a great casting agent, because you have a good eye for men who have "star quality." In real life, your high standards may be an obstacle for you. It's hard to find a man with the strong features you like, who's also well-rounded in other ways. Still, you know the importance of a real physical "spark" in a relationship, and aren't willing (or able) to settle for less. The challenge is finding a man who really wows you physically, even if he's not the most handsome man in the room.

Very Selective: You are very selective, compared to most guys, in the types of men you find appealing. You're wowed by "movie star" good looks, and in general, appreciate men with "traditional" or "mainstream" appeal. You probably face a lot of competition going after the most popular guys. Let others fight over the "movie stars" and you'll find a more unique guy who can be your own personal "hunk." (see I've just confirmed my worst fears .. i guess it's back to the drawing board and to reassess my standards in guys haha)

pleasant surprise by "bike dash"
music: backgrd noise; mood: fuzzy

pleasantly surprised to receive a package from Erwin while at work today ... so sweet and nice of him. and it did really bring a smile to my face, thanks so much for brightening up my day!!!

hehe you better not let your company find out that you've been abusing the corporate courier service though ... altho i'm guilty of it myself haha.

once again, thanks.

another monday
music: five for fighting - 100 years

9.30am>> stuck on Shenton Way. I am damn freaking late .. headfones on and trying to put
on my tie at the same time. How could there still be a jam at this hour? *exasperated*

9:34am>> spies a tanned guy in his early 30's outside delifrance. He's got thinning hairline
*shudders* *drops my half-knotted tie* *gropes my crown to check if it's still intact* ...
(insert breathe of relief here) ... vows not to ever let stress do that to me

9:40am>> arrives at work with victorious arms flailing in the air, just like those
african marathon runners coming in first. I broke another record late time!! ..(realises
that no one gives a damn, and even the big boss is not here yet ..damn)

10:00am>> receive SMS from Rini to say that she woke up late and is taking mc ...biatch! grr

10:30am>> remembered i had a dream last night that the EURO and AUD went up again.
rushed to check the spot rates ... it was only a dream after all. damn. hey, in fact
the yen is dropping as well ..what the??

12:55am>> to lunch or not to lunch? that is the question ...

1:35pm>> back from lunch .. had nasi lemak ..feel bloated now. sleepy zzz.

5:40pm>> been a tiring day ... didn't even have time to check out friend's journals.
i'm going home after this methinks ... gonna give the movie a miss. plus the punishing
workout yesterday has been causing my triceps to burn the whole day ... damn all these
pain, and where's the result?

8:00pm>> discovery channel showing this doco abt asian historical mysteries .. yummy
my kind of shows ...

9:00pm>> oops fell asleep while watching the show .. damn freaking tired ...went to check
email and chat on icq for awhile. Inadvertantly surfed to gay.com/chat, i freaking swear my
internet explorer is haunted ... anyway nothing interesting going on there LOL

10:00am>> should i squirt? and what happens after that?
should i slurp as well?

12:00am>> logging off now ..muaks people.hope you enjoyed my (boring) day.

aww shut up! i only did this quiz once ..
music: kylie minogue - love at first sight



OK, so maybe you ain't a geek. You do, at least, show a bit of interest in the world around you. Either that, or you have enough of a sense of humor to pick some of the sillier answers on the test. Regardless, you're probably a pretty nifty, well-rounded person who gets along fine with people and can chat with just about anyone without fear of looking stupid or foolish or overly concerned with minutiae. God, I hate you

Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com

so many questions; so little time
music: maria callas - o mio babbino caro (gianni schicchi); mood: ambivalent

a constant thought that pervades my mind these days;
how much i have changed, since yesterday;
from last month; a year ago...
the pace of my transformation astounds myself.
i am not even half the person i was 2 months ago.

is it for the better, i know not.
is it an inevitable passage everyone goes through
once they get to a certain age? or does it have to do
with being just another fellow being trying to survive in
this cutthroat society?

am i only discovering the real me?
the me that I have denied repeatedly for what i believed
was the way things should be?
is this why i am getting comfortable and even
identifying with things that I find unacceptable just 2 months
back?

does this mean that i am less judgmental these days?
or is this a gradual erosion of my principles and morals?
should i rejoice or should i fret?
should i resist or should i embrace it whole-heartedly?

at this rate, i'm afraid even vagab or j.woo would not be able
to recognise me when they return from overseas.


O mio babbino caro,
mi piace 猫 bello, bello;
vo'andare in Porta Rossa
a comperar l'anello!
S矛, s矛, ci voglio andare!
e se l'amassi indarno,
andrei sul Ponte Vecchio,
ma per buttarmi in Arno!
Mi struggo e mi tormento!
O Dio, vorrei morir! (translation)

music: richard marx - right here waiting; mood: stoned


A fleeting dream that lasted more than a month;
twas a very comfortable arrangement.
Maybe a little too comfortable,
i lost my direction and i took it for granted.
I grew restless,
and yearned for something else.
I thought it was suffocating, I wanted out.
Maybe I was wrong,
maybe not.

Another one consists of fleeting encounters,
beginning from last November.
I dreamt of you; read about you;
that cheeky smile ...
the sms-es sent to american idol;
the barrage of comments on LJ;
the dreams, the poems, the plans, the ...

"i don't want to lead you on. i'm sorry"

funny how it applies in both situations.

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"in the past, the letter a was just like any others to me. but now it shall bring a smile to me and remind me of your dimple and smile"

music: diana krall - autumn leaves; mood: relaxed;




One night too short.
One night to sort,
wild thoughts untamed,
build up again:
words are not only for parting.
This dusk is for starting -
the beginnning hour.

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Warmth betray the chilly night,
where winds and rain can no longer seep.
The clouds have yonder the mountain height,
white cirrus now that do not weep.

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Ah what illusions of grandeur,
the break of a smile barely chesire.
Enough to place a stare blank as space.
Every moment lost in a dream,
every moment in bliss.

Honey, what's going on here?

*cackles*

I added Bailey's into my usual dose of protein shake ... then added ice cubes, and it was fucking fabulous ...

turns out I'm not stuck in a rut after all ...

*Karen Walker, baby*shrieks*