Music: Jennifer Paige - It's just another crush (NOT!!! AS IF)
Been working for two weeks liao and time does seeem to fly ... Even from the first day, I was bombarded with so many new things that I would have to learn ... new perspective and priorities I would have to incoporate into my new life ... basically a restructuring of my lifestyle. Now every morning, I would ave to be in the office latest by 8.45am (but I get to wake up at 7.45 and still have time for grooming and a nice brekkie ...Isn't city living marvellous? LOL). Not to mention that my work is in a totally different playing field altogether, I had to practically reinvent myself totally (at least the inner workings of my brain) as I undergo a crash course in the coming 6 weeks.
As stressful as it seems, I am quite having alot of fun meeting new people from the workplace. They are really fun and nice people.. once we even went to play pool during break instead of doing lunch. And once, we got off early and did karaoke!! I don't know .. but where are all the bitchiness and politics that I was expecting ?? Or maybe not yet ..I don't know ...
But yeah just two weeks into my work and it seems like I have been getting alot of attentions ...from the opposite sex sadly. In fact, a conversation goes something like this today with this guy called David today while we were on a smoking break.
"Damn you ...ever since you came to work here ...none of the girls even notice us anymore." he fumes teasingly.
"Huh? Whadda ya mean?" I feigned innocent =)
"You sibe yan dao (gd lkg) what!" quips another guy ...
"Got meh??" I acted surprised at that comment ...well I like people to think that it was the first time I have heard it =)
"Yah lar .. all the girls whole day always talking about you. Some more, their eyes always on you ..they dun even know I exist anymore" David adds again. "Your closest competitor so far is W*****...."
At the mention of his name, I thought of him and cant help it but smiled to myself. This guy is new as well ...came in a week after I did. And the first time I saw him walk through that door, damn, I couldn't take my eyes off him. He looks like a tanner version of Tony Leung, with jet black hair that looks so suave with a side-parting, his eyes like Tony's that are kinda droopy at the end and his lips, so damn sexy.
He smiled, and his eyes crinkled and sparkled, his lips curled and damn it he's got dimples too!!!! I was infatuated ....Even when he has his silver rimmed specs on while reading, he is a total babe!
I was so into this guy that I later went over and talked to him ...hello you guys should know I hardly do that at all! So yeah I learned that he's a fresh grad from NUS and has a degree in engineering as well (wow ..with brains too!) and he loves playing soccer.... We kinda hit it off anyway and I prayed so hard that he is AJ and would like me too ...
But yeah 4 days later, it seems like nothing much has progresed from the first day we met. We have lunch together, smokes and have coffee break together but that is all. Just now, as I left the office, I sms-ed him to ask if he was still going out tonight (he mentioned Zouk's Halloween Party earlier) and he replied that he is meeting up some frens at Mohd Sultan (oh gawd .... like why?!?!?) ..so I tried to see if he would be keen to meet up with me, I texted back that I might go if he's still staying there for abit and asked how long he would be there for.
His reply was one word: Dunno.
Well, if that isn't an expression of disinterest and nonchalance, I dunno what is. Maybe he is not even gay at all in the first place right? I mean if he is, how could he not be interested in me??!?!? HAHAHA hey I'm trying to salvage whateva little ego I can at this point allright ...sigh ..
But yeah, I am amazed by the fact that I am still having crushes/infatuations at this age. I mean I can't stop thinking about this guy ya know ... his face with taht arrogant smirk is so deeply imprinted in my mind. The last time this has happened was like 1.5 years ago .....
This morning, on my way to work, I passed by Orchard Rd and to my delight, found that the first Christmas decorations has been assembled at the intersection infront of Marriott ..... A warm fuzzy feeling crept inside me .. and suddenly everything seems better. I didn't even mind having to wake up so early ... everything seems worth it all at once and being alife really felt like a gift at that moment. I also thought of last year in December and how that seemed like such a long time ago ..... how far I have come from then ...
Now if only I have someone cute like W***** to hold my hands as we stroll down Orchard Rd with all these lights flanking by the side ...
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
----------------- Kelly Clarkson