Luxury of Solitude
Music: David Tao - Ai Heng Jian Dan

It's Saturday night .. and I am at home ... not out at Tabs or Water Bar ... HE is at Velvet at the moment (with his frens) but I just don't feel like doing anything tonight. It seems like such a luxury to be able to have time to yourself, in the middle of the night, finally stillness in the air so quiet that you can finally hear yourself breathing (and your heart's confessions) ...

I don't need no clubs and handbag music to have fun.

I don't need no booze and chain-smoking to feel good about myself

And I certainly don't need those sex-starved gay men to make me feel desired and attractive. Or maybe I do (or I did) .. Anyhow, I think they irritate the sheet out of me (for tonight at least)

Tonight is for me .... a brief hiatus to recuperate and to find the real me, to connect with my inner self.

To prepare myself for the coming onslaught ...