out of reach

Twas a pretty hard week for me;
my first bodypump class instructor Jes, who has since became
one of my closest friend has left for Sydney. Maybe for a while
maybe for good. We don't know ...

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Fly Away by Corrinne May

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart
to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

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The night she left, at a karaoke bar along Orchard Road,
I was singing a Faye Wong number of a love;
beautiful but lost. And I thought of Jes, of relationships
with maturity dates, of doomed long distance couples,
clinging on to a faith and dream labelled under the term love.
I thought of myself ....

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Hong Dou by Faye Wong



"Most times,
we believe that everything will come to an end.
Farewells and reunions;
nothing stays constant in life.

But some times,
I'd rather tear as I refuse to let go.
Till everything has been said and done,
may we be like the gentle brook;
steady but lasting"

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Sunday afternoon;
the usual pump class was decidedly muted.
Perhaps lack of sleep induced by too much "happy"ness,
or a sense of foreboding,
maybe even begrudgement or dissapointment ...
The andrenaline and endorphin rush helped abit ...
but the chest was heavy and the throat was dry with expectations.
Eye contacts were awkward
and topics were skirted.
It was all behind when the cool down song came on ...

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Out of Reach by Gabrielle

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you,
And now I feel like the fool.

So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had you heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

Catch myself from despair,
I could drown if I stay here,
Keeping busy every day,
I know I will be okay.

But I was
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

So much hurt, so much pain,
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside,
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind.
I'll be over you.

But now i'm
So confused, my hearts bruised,
Was I ever loved by you.

Out of reach, so far,
I never had your heart,
Out of reach, couldn't see,
We were never meant to be.

Out of reach, so far,
You never gave your heart,
In my reach, I can see,
There's a life out there for me.

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Nothing lasts forever,
and somebody once said before
"The only thing constant in life is change".
Things happen. People happen.

For a reason, for a season, for a lifetime.

Nobody knows.

Should I stay, or should I go?